Well well well. Today was interesting. I actually had quite a few epiphany’s. Most interesting. Many of them are pretty godamn personal, but here we go…

1. Well formed molecules can’t even compare to an awesome mind and soul.

2. Change is good.

3. What I thought was ultimately important, ended up in me being at peace with the thought that it won’t be forever. Crap…I’m still having a hard time admitting that. No, wait. Shit. Why is this so hard? Fuck.

4. I’m not as atrocious as I claim to be…LOL.

5. I love a lot of people.

6. I discovered my passion in the world: Helping others. Seriously. Nothing can make me more happy than hearing someone say, “Thanks for helping me through this”. Seeing others happy and making them happy-whatever the cost, is ultimately important to me as well.

7. Ermm…again, I love a lot of people.

8. Letting go is seriously a bitch.

…And now that we’ve discovered that I’m a sappy little spiritual shrink wanna be…AND the fact that most of you probably have no idea what the hell I’m talking about…aw hell shut up, you’ll find out later on.

*edit* He brushed the sands from his hands and looked up, “Is she ill? Do you know?”

“Ill? What do you mean?”

“Is there anything wrong with her?”

I laughed. “Not physically, no. Why?”

He picked up a small stone and tossed it in his hand. “I thought I noticed something when she was on the bridge.”

“What?”

“Nothing.”

“Tell me,” I said. “Tell me what you saw.”

He lowered his eyes. “Thats it–nothing. Thats what I saw.” He looked up. “She didn’t have a face.”

I don’t think he was trying to frighten me, or impress me, or spook me…I don’t think he was trying to do anything except tell me that he’d seen, or what he thought he’d seen. He’d had a feeling about something, and he’d learned over the years not to ignore his feelings, whether he understood them or not. I’ve come to think of it since as the same kind of feeling that animals have–when birds know it’s time to migrate, when dogs know a thunderstorm is coming, when ants know its the right time to fly. They don’t know how they know these things, and they don’t know what they mean. All they know is that when you get the feeling you have to act upon it.

Lucas was just trying to warn me, thats all.

But I think he knew it wouldn’t make any difference. The future’s already there,  it can’t be changed.