Alright. I’ve stalled on this for far, far too long. I can’t keep it going like this. In the end, I’m not going to want to go out with him, I’m not going to like him. He’s just not my type. Plus. I’ve got my eye on someone else. So. I need to end this now. I need to tell him that it’s never going to work. It’s just the way things are. I can’t…CAN’T keep him on hoping with a “Oh, well, I’ll see. Who knows?”

It’s not right. Fuck. If only I could bring myself up to doing that. IF OOOOOOOOONLY!!

GODAMMIT ITS NOT MY FAULT I DONT LIKE THE GUY!!!!! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO ABOUT IT?!?!

WHY DO I ATTRACT GUYS I HAVE NO INTEREST IN?! WHYYYYYYYY?!

IT’S NOT FUCKING FAIR!!

Shit, this is too much to take. It’s too fucking sad.

Fuck.

~Eleia, fuck