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Feeling: Bored, Shitty, Idiotic, Dependant, Cold, and oh so dissapointed. …Godammit, it’s not like I can expect anything anyway. *sigh* Fuck.

Man. Sick humor just fascinates me. Gutsby Chuck Palahniuk Inhale. Take in as much air as you can. This story should last about as long as you can hold your breath, and then just a little bit longer. So listen as fast as you can. A friend of mine, when he was 13 years oldContinue reading

A crazed problem always lurking at the back of her mind. Be it when talking to a friend, listening to and elder, or even saying “I love you” to a partner and never meaning it. She longed for a lift, stimulation, but the possibility of achieving that moment alarmed her infinitely. A tear then refusedContinue reading

Its so fucking annoying. Godamn constipation. Why me godammit, why me? I used to shit for hours and hours…now I STRUGGLE for hours and hours. Such a godamn bitch. My stomach is the size of womans pregnant stomach. What a fucking whore. It’s a total cunt in the ass. Haha, wow, aren’t I pissed? ^_^Continue reading

Hmmm…now that I look back on this year…all I have to say is… Holy Mutherfucking Crap.

Hmm…today has rocked so far ^_^ No complaints. I’m just fucking happy. Grrr…I miss ya godammit! Hehe I’m so neurotic. ANYWAY–I’m not too excited for school tomorrow. I feel so fat right now. Today I literally ate everything in sight. Everything. Damn you Mickey D’s, damn you. Aw, hell–I love myslf to much to bitchContinue reading

Ah, man I feel like complete shit. It’s kind of like that feeling you get when you *feel* something but it just doesn’t want to come out…or you just find difficulty expressing it. Whichever it is…it’s a complete bitch lmao.

*Looks Down*… Right. Well. We’ll leave that for another entry. Anyway, on a lighter note. The weathers better. Whoo Hoo, time to get naked when going to sleep, whatever, the world rocks. Yes. We know. Something feels weird. Maybe it’s just me. Something is just out of place–and I don’t like it one bit. I’m startingContinue reading

Alright. So it’s pretty godamn late considering my schedule. Oh man. Haha. I can’t help but laugh. It’s just so great having conversations with Bella on how men get jealous too. It’s quite a surprise how this chicka knows so much. Well what can I say–she IS Miss. Six Months and 16 days. Gooo BellaContinue reading

Fuck Fuck Fuck. GRRRRRRRRR. Going Insane. Right now. Fuck. Don’t ask. Okay–time for random thoughts: 1. I’m so shy, I’m so shy, I’m so shy. Er..yeah. 2. I need to get out of here. 3. I want summer to come–yet I don’t want summer to come. 4. I’m not in the mood for your bitching.Continue reading